confusing rants

Okay,u guyz won't understand this story..=D

Today is Wesak Day,and coincidently,it's John's birthday.And because I was so bored and had nothing better to do online,so I visited his blog.And from there,I visited his Friendster account.And then after much contemplation,I wrote a short testimonial,just to say "happy bday",and then I left.=D

And I started thinking...about all the little mistakes I made.And about the feelings I've hurt.And I thought about myself ,now,that's the present and then,which ish the past.And then here I am writing my confused thoughts out.Hmm..it's hard...but i'll just ignore it.Okay,I'm not exactly making much sense.I don't know what's my problem and what am I talking about anymore.Or maybe I do know but I just don't wanna know that I know. And that's what Siew Thong says, I'm running away. Which ish true.He told me that too.A little more than a year ago,and thanks to that,I decided to stop running,only to find that I stopped at the wrong place.I should've continued running,and maybe I would've approached a sign which would tell me which way to go.But that's the past.And well, I'm back on track,just a little confused,but this time I'll just continue running,just to make sure,and when the time is right,I'll stop,or if the time never comes,I'll just continue until I see another sign.

It's easy to say that,but I just can't do it.Just look at me,I'm pathetic,I'm wasting my time here.There's absolutely nothing to do online anymore,I should just off the computer,go downstairs,take my contact lenses out,bathe,and start studying or something! Pathetic procrastination.

And,well,I haven't found a solution to this problem,oh yeah! Continue running.yeah!Kay then... =D

p/s: I'M EDWIN'S SEXIEST FAN!

with love,
liying.